- Mood:
Frustrated - Listening to: The Show - Lenka
- Reading: Sunshine - Robin McKinley
- Watching: Bones re-runs.
As you may - or may not - know, I am an avid participator in National Novel Writing Month - NaNoWriMo for short - each November. This year is going to be no exception, but there will be one noticable difference - I get to apply to college this year. And the UC system application is due in November. This I can manage, by finishing it in October and just submitting it when I can, but I'm applying Early Admission to Stanford, and that Application is due November 1st, which means it HAS to get done in October. And October is usually my NaNoPlanning month. So, this year, I've moved it up to September. I want to have my plot and characters firmly in place by October, to make it one less thing I have to worry about.
And I thought I had my plot. Really, I did. I wanted to re-work Fairytale, my novel of last November. I loved my characters and plot, but the setting wasn't working for me. And being the steampunk-loving girl I am, I wanted to rewrite Cheshire & Co. into an AU Steampunk world, where I could have fun dabbling in neo-Victoriana while writing. Lovely idea, no? But then, it kind of fell apart. The more I look at it, the less likely it seems to want to work. When I try to write Steampunk, I always want to write it in the sky, with skypirates and airships and everything that makes me love steampunk so. But Fairytale doesn't work so well in the sky. It worked best amongst the slums of the city I had created; it worked best with crime lords and the desperate poor. And I hated the city I built for last November, but it suited the story so well.
So I'm on the verge of tearing that story to shreds and starting over, when I write Come What May. And I know it's not that good of a story, but it got me wondering. There's so much angst in there, so much of the characters that you don't see. There's a history there, I know it. And before I know it, I've come up with a backstory for the characters. I know how they got to where they are - why they're sitting in a small room waiting for death. So I've got a plot. But the characters for this one - they're flat. And if I went with this story, it'd be set in a dystopian cyberpunk future reality. And as much as I love my dystopian fantasies, I don't think I could live with this one for a month. Especially not in November. Especially not if Barack Obama wins. It's a depressing future I'd be creating, and I can be cynical as hell when the occasion arises, but at heart I'm essentially an optimist. I don't want to create a world where non-Christians, gays, and dissenters are in hiding, exiled to protect themselves from an overbearing government. And that's the world I'd be creating. [Not to mention, I'm not such a fan of straight-up cyberpunk. Which this so is.] And the characters that would be my protagonists - they're going to offend everyone, including myself, if I write them the way they'd need to be written. And I don't want to do that either.
So the dilemma I am facing is this: which shall I do? Should I go with the plot-driven dystopia, or rip Fairytale apart and cobble it back together in an anachronistic universe? Do I go with the slick silicone of cyberpunk or the gorgeously outdated gears of steampunk? I can't deciiiiiiiide.
And I'm also trying to decide whather or not to dye my hair, which has its own set of very unique and equally annoying options.